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ini kuliah senin jam 7 pagi

tiap senin harus berangkat jam set 5 pagi

 

>mfw everyone thinks i'm normal because i'm so good at hiding my power level

If only they knew.

>>Your cover will be blown someday and you will feel bad, trust me.



>>I know, especially since i've been playing so fast and loose with my laptop lately. someone will see or hear something. They're terrible people too, they won't let me forget if they know.

 

badjingan
tiap kali gw dapat mimpi buruk ,kenapa mimpi gw bukan tentang dikejar setan / hal aneh" lainnya
tapi malah tentang hidup sehari-hari gw (dalam situasi yang buruk,ada masalah ini itu lah) kaya ngeliat gw sendiri suffering

mimpi kaya gini bener" bisa bikin bangun tengah malam & gk bisa tidur lagi ,

 

bukannya gw seneng ngeliat orang lagi susah
tapi hal itu bisa ngebuat gw lebih bersyukur atas hidup gw ,
biarpun orang" yang bisa membuat gw kayak gitu cuman chara" novel/kartun doang
ngliat chara kartun suffering itu ada rasa tersendiri

pic not related

 

believe in tomorrow's smile
shine MY ONLY ONE


the moment i stood on the edge of despair
i heard the sound of a kind wind
then i found it , this is my stage
i fly into that sky once again

STAND UP the future lies ahead
that's why we now depart
watch me MY ONLY ONE
More,more i want to tell you how i fell
there is something i can't give up no matter how much i'm hurt
listen,listen i'll sing my heart out
i don't care if they laugh at me
i won't lose


i'm heading towards my dream now,hands outstretched
STAND UP let's run without doubts
to live in this world
with you MY ONLY ONE

Tachiagare! - Wake up girls!

that day, i'll find you MY ONLY ONE !

 

bah ini kos gw aneh bener,kemaren pas puncak musim hujan kaga ada nyamuk
tapi kalo sekarang musim ujan mau abis malah rame nyamuk

 

Well, Madoka was pretty straight forward. Homura made a wish to save Madoka, failed a billion times, finally broke and turned into a which, stole the Madoka from the universe, and in the end never truly had the Madoka.

No matter how much she tried, she could not keep the Madoka.

The ending is quite clear on this point. Every scene showed Homura interacting with a Madoka that was not there.

It isn't day, it is night.

The moon isn't all there, half of it is there.

There is one chair there.

There is a cliff.

Homura leans on the Madoka who isn't there.

 

"Moral outrage with incest is simply stupid, there are plenty who share a separate or no faith at all, the only true problem that can be understood by all sides is the possibility of birth defects and that is easily remedied with simply having either sibling agree to be sterilized. " anon



baru nonton yosuga no sora malah nemu post kek gitu

 

mimpi apaan gw barusan
reuni an (ngumpul" sama temen SMA),saling curhat
eh pas gw lagi bercanda,ada temen gw 1 itu senyum sambil ketawa kecil,ngadep ke gw,tau" nyium pipi kiri gw

padahal kepikiran aja kagak,tau" ngimpi kaya gitu

 

nyebar undangan lomba ke kampus tetangga


ngliat anak kesurupan di deket ruang hima mereka
gw kenapa reflek pengen ketawa liat reaksi dia kesurupan ,untung gw kuat nahan diri
waktu itu gw ngenalin diri pake 'kita dari . . . '

lucu aja liat orang tereak" kaga jelas

 

ternyata bener kata senior gw 'kuliah itu kaga bakal kerasa 4 tahun,cepet banget,pasti bakal kerasa lebih singkat dari masa SMA'

apalagi pas liburan gini ,libur 3 hari berasa cepet banget
hari kuliah pasti lengkap,ada saat" bahagia,maupun sedih sampe nangis"

 

ketika lu jadi seorang wibu,lu bakal kehilangan nafsu duniawi bahkan nafsu surgawi
udah gak peduli lagi sama dunia akhirat

"because our heaven is here,on our chineese cartoon"
yes,it won't last forever
even so


setiap gw nemu kebahagiaan imajiner,mesti ada aja orang" yang bikin gw lupa diri
entah kenapa gw kaga bisa bener" cuek sama mereka ,setiap gw kondisi kek gini selalu ada aja yang tau" ngasih perhatian gajelas,gw diem" dikasih jajan lah,ditraktir lah,diajakin jalan

benci bener gw sama orang" yang membuat gw lupa sama imajinasi gw

 

nasib anak kos
tiap kali agak ga enak badan langsung paranoid
ke minimarket beli susu,jus,minuman isotonik,air putih,jus buah,vitacimin
sampe kamar langsung mandi,ganti pakaian bersih,tidur pake selimut tebel
segala yang ada embel" 'sehat'nya langsung diembat

 

1 hari gak pernah berasa 24 jam penuh akhir" ini

tau" tiap hari udah bangun aje pas paginya

 

self control ,bisa juga gw nahan diri di saat kaya tadi

untung dah temen gw langsung nyaut waktu tadi ,kalo ga udah hancur pasti situasi yang kek gitu

 

saat kamu telah melewati 'neraka dunia',
kamu bakal sadar kalo
lu ga ingin hidup di dunia/ga peduli lagi sama dunia ini,tapi lu harus bisa hidup di dunia ini agar bisa mencapai 'sesuatu'



'sesuatu' itu berbeda" setiap orang


the world is cruel,but its inhabitant is crueler - anon

 

ga ada manusia yang milih untuk jadi wibu/hikky
'you not becoming a weeb,you just wake up and realize that you're one of them'- k.y.


setiap kali gw ngrefleksi masa kecil gw,tetep aja nangis ,ga peduli sesukses apapun gw sekarang

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anyway,
baru ngerti gw perasaan chara imouto yang ngebet sama kakaknya

they're the one that keep me sane,give me motivation,my very first friend etc.



kesimpulan dari nonton yosuga no sora
>you will never have a female clone of yourself
**** this gay earth.

 

buka" yande.re,pixiv jadi puyeng sendiri gw
semakin berasa 'buta dunia'

 

kenapa adek gw jadi clinging banget ke gw

bahkan pas gw dotaan (ngerti kan konsennya orang dota,telpon aje kaga diangkat kalo pas war),dia pingin ngajak gw ngomong sampe rela berdiri disamping gw (posisi meja gw ngadep tembok)
'besok aku berangkat sekolah dianterin kan kak ?',bahkan kalimat pertama dia kek gitu

setelah 5 menitan gw cuekin,dia mulai diam,pas udah 15 menitan ditinggal tidur juga akhirnya



somehow i felt like a dirt ,bingung bener gw kena situasi kek gini
oh god helppp