A+23 - Visual Daybreak

Ternyata jaman jaman nonton 1 TV buat se kampung itu terjadi di rumah nenek sendiri dan aku baru tau loh ya terus ternyata anak SD ke sekolah sekalian jualan itu juga terjadi, di uwa sendiri tapi yang beda adalah ternyata nenek kakek aku pemikirannya juga udah jauh disaat yang lain belum meski pendidikan anaknya gak bisa tinggi karena faktor jarak, ada alternatif lain: kursus itu jaman dulu kenapa jaman sekarang aku kok kayanya gak bersyukur banget huhu

 

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How was your day, A? Your tired face in the morning, and wet hair bcs you don't have a time to dry it, pay it all? But I think that was a success, my brother come home with smiled face bcs he's happy after all of his practice for the last one month pay off You know, yesterday was one of the best styling I ever seen on you That blue hoodie you've liked to wear until the color faded Combine with leather jacket with red stripe on the sleeve and light blue jeans I'm not tried to be cheesy but you're so handsome. I'm going to try hard to win your heart from now on And pray that we fated till jannah aamiin :')

 

When "I don't care" and "Be patient" beda beda tipis dengan ekspresi yang sama hmmm harus banyak husnudzon

 

liat rincian biaya nikah udah pengen nangis aja sampe di bilangin: "kalo kamu mikirin biaya terus kapan nikahnya" lebih sedih lagi calonnya belum ada nangis aja ken nangis sepagi ini loh di rumah mikirin yang begitu kan lucu pagi pagi

 

"Mending bareng orang yang kamu cintai atau yang mencintai kamu?" tanya Mama dan sungguh aku gak bisa jawab. Well, siapa sih yang gak pengen dicintai? Cuma itu jadi pilihan yang sulit sekarang Tunggu waktu yang jawab aja deh Sekarang beta fokus dulu aja sama kegiatan yang harus diselesaikan

 

Why are they still a nightmare even after a year passed?

 

Ternyata slogan nike yang "just do it" itu emang bener loh Mau apapun juga, kadang ngerasa "duh gak mungkin", "duh gak bisa" itu bisa di pangkas dengan "lakuin aja" Kalo kamu memang niat. Akhir-akhir ini lagi coba berhenti nonton drakor, ini udah akut banget soalnya Setelah semua di pangkas (akhirnya) dari HD laptop, aku ternyata punya banyak waktu free time gak sebanyak dulu memang, tapi jadi lebih quality aja di pake istirahat atau apa Skrg lagi free, malah bingung mau nonton apa saking gak aku tonton semua mau show ataupun drama ternyata, bisa juga 'istirahat' dulu dari rutinitas yang aku kira gak akan bisa lepas Alhamdulillah

 

Life is sure unexpected in so many ways • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • • I'm going to away for several month

 

I will learn how to give up. No, I'm already give up now. Kenapa ya ini tiap maret harus aja 'pisah' sama orang yang gak disangka-sangka. Last year was him, its also my wish tho but I really regret it now. This year gonna be you, A? Tbh, I won't. At least gave me a chance before I said goodbye. This is only take three month tho~ hiks But I guess, maybe life won't gave me any longer time So I will learn how to give up. Thank you, at least for the last 5 years we know each other you're my hidden spirit I can lean on

 

Pergi. Kalo memang kau hanya datang untuk singgah. Harap pergi. Aku memang orang yang cepat luluh hatinya. Hanya dengan kau datang, aku merasa cukup. Tapi memang jika kau datang hanya untuk singgah. Pergilah. Aku tidak akan menahanmu lagi kali ini Aku sudah lelah Jangan lagi kau datang di saat ku gundah dan pergi ketika aku sudah merasa tenang Karena ketika kau pergi, semuanya kembali seperti sedia kala Aku tak butuh rasa kasihanmu Sedari dulu aku bisa mengatasinya sendiri Jadi aku harap kau pergi kali ini, Dan kembali jika memang kau sudah yakin

 

Ahh, I'm not the strong person you used to be like ... so you're gone. I kept living in the past because my life is so damn hilarious now but I only remember the good things I want so I'm forget about myself ... the good girl, the strong girl, the cranky but cheerful girl so now, you're gone. in my mind, you told me that "I don't feel for you the way I used to" so you leave. That's right Who like me now? even me, hate myself so much. "we kill flowers because we think they're beautiful, we kill ourselves because we think we are not"

 

i just remember about two or three years ago I asked someone why she's call me 'kak' when I found out that she was older than me And she said: "Because I respected you, and proud for what you have done" And I take it for granted. Like seriously, my hobby cannot put in my cv right now And my hobby is just a damn joke that every one going to laugh at it I'm so ashamed of myself right now I should put my hobby behind earlier and focus on my dream But what I got now? Nothing. What my Mom & Dad do wrong to have a daughter like me?

 

Lately, I don't know why it has been so easy to overcome something painful Last year, it's almost impossible to overcome this

 

Jadi, buat apa aku inisiatif tapi tetep aja diginiin? Iya, aku tau aku salah Cuma kan hari ini itu hectic banget, baru aja pulang, lagi sarapan eh udah di gurung gusuh ke undangan Pas udah pulang badan capek banget, gak niat tidur tapi ketiduran Lah jadi mau tetep nyalahin? Pas manggil juga cuma nawarin mangga kan Aku kan gak tau ternyata ada maksud lain juga Dan pas aku ke bawah malah dibilang "nanti-nanti gak usah lagi aja" Astagfirullah Cuma gara-gara barang makanan yang padahal masih bisa di makan kok Value hidup aku langsung ilang gitu aja? Astagfirullah Yaudah ya, peduli amat sekarang mau kacau balau Mau jadi gimana juga terserah Aku gak akan peduli lagi dan gak akan ngelakuin apapun lagi

 

Even though it going to be hard, let's overcome this, Ken

 

Kalo orang baca ini http://forum.idws.id/posts/33293808/ pasti mikirnya aku negatif banget Padahal aslinya sih buat diri aku sendiri I should know that I were their sister, not friends so eventho they pat my head, hold my hand, I still going to be their sister

 

When you thought you're going to go to getaway but not But you only have a week to finish all of this HAHAHAHA Ya Allah lancarkanlah Ya Rabb

 

"When a man truly interested in you, there will be no need for you to do the pursuing. Men are born to pursue women. Yes, you can pursue a man if you want to, but in most cases that's just an obvious sign that he's not into you. It's not natural for a man to sit back and allow you to do all the work. For allow you to do all of the calling, texting, dating, arrangements, talk about the future etc., it's pretty obvious where you stand in that man's life. When a man really wants you, you won't have to chase after him like he's some celebrity who barely has a time for a fan. You will be his priority." So, how, Ken?