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    About me

    name : Fairyfly

    age : moving on to 25

    occupation : still finding somethings I look forward into
     
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    bikin diary juga akhirnya :swt: gara2 liat si sherlock udah bikin diary duluan, wogh, kalahkan sherlock, ayo :onfire:

    welp, I gotta say something to me today :

    Don't be scared. Even if you are, just pretend that you are not.


    selamat pagi dunia :nikmat:
     
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    The hell with this sh*t :swt:

    niat mau nulis, malah maen dota ma cs, ampun dah emang :swt:

    kerja malem emang gak enak, tapi kerja siang bikin malem gak enak juga :swt:

    kocak :swt:

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    ndan, latihan pagi harinya batalin aja :nangis:
     
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    aaaa pengen latihan militer lagii :aaaa:

    konco2ku dulu kemana ya :hiks: masi inget ga pas kemana2 harus apal sandi "bela" :hiks:

    salah nyebut sandi kena push-up 20 :voodoo:

    ada perwira kampret :voodoo: mana nyuruh ke utan bawa koper segala :voodoo:

    mau solat zuhur gak ada yang adzan, sersan Yadi ngadat2 di masjid :voodoo:

    mau makan dateng sersan gorila bentak2 "siapa suruh kalian makan?" langsung diem semua peserta :takut:

    aye yang komandan regu gak bisa baris berbaris disuruh latihan ampe malem bareng Kapten Basri :voodoo:

    kalo baris harus apal orang yang ada di depan belakang kiri kanan serong kiri serong kanan :swt: ga boleh salah barisan :swt:

    anggota mules n nolak latian, yang kena komandan peleton, komandan peleton ngadat ke komandan regu :voodoo: anggota enak2 tidur, kan kampret :voodoo:

    tapi...

    aaaa kangen latihan militer lagi :hiks:
     
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    I want to go the the sea like this again, sometimes...
     
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    Saya merasa lucu melihat kondisi masyarakat sekarang. Lucu, karena kebanyakan mereka memilih untuk panik, marah, protes, dan kecewa terhadap hal-hal yang secara garis besar kurang berarti. protes keras ketika meja restoran kotor, marah besar ketika selimut pindah posisi saat akan atau sedang tidur, ngadat karena uang kembalian kurang atau apalah...

    Seriously, they must've not experienced how it's like to sleep on the floor and eat once a day, with rainwater coming from the roof everyday that keeps your mind on the edge all the time.

    Life's really something.
     
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    Rasanya setiap orang pernah menyesal dalam memilih. ada yang hanya satu atau dua kali, dan mungkin ada juga yang berkali-kali.

    Saia juga, pernah menyesal dalam memilih organisasi di kampus dulu. Organisasi yang hanya menonjolkan senioritas tanpa batas, bahwa senior adalah raja yang harus dihormati secara luar biasa.

    Ah, nevermind.
     
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    Our mod in SF Fiction, sometimes feels like a weird man that only care for himself and his world.

    But come to think of it, he is a real man, not a king, not a god, a man that can provide mental comfort for the members. Although sometimes he can be a little nuts, he is indeed a man to be rely on.

    We lost many members as day goes by - that I can endure. But I imagined that if we lose him as our leader, it would be like losing a godfather we rely to.

    Oh well, It's still a long way to go, anyway.
     
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    so I closed my facebook account today.

    I think I really need time without distraction, without others, without everything, just me and myself.

    if possible, I want to shut down my Blackberry Messenger too.

    Right now, it's annoying for me to see what others are thinking, or when they says nonsense about every little thing, or even sharing their pictures. I don't want to be bothered.

    I want to be free, to be without other's perception and judgement.
     
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    It was raining yesterday.

    Recalling of my old memories, I used to run accross the field in the rain.

    Time really flows :sepi:
     
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    Sometimes, I think that my whole life is just a big mess.

    I just cannot accept the way I am right now. Sometimes, I just can't...
     
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    I lost my emotion because of a mere game :swt:

    I probably should stop gaming now. It ruins my life, my future, and even myself :iii:

    Those addictive things :swt:
     
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    gah, I cannot understaand about my life's budget :swt:

    overall salary : 500 USD /month
    house credit payment : USD 100 / month
    fixed debt : USD 100 / month
    family's matter : USD 200 / month
    personal budget : USD 100 / month, that includes :
    - Meal USD 50 / month
    - Gasoline USD 30 / month
    - Emergency USD 20 / month

    even though my salary is rather big, I still live on cup noodles :hiks:

    oh, well...
     
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    You might love doing something, but you can't force what you love to others. It is funny to see that some people try to make others love doing what they love. The world is not as small as you think, you know?

    To make it simpler, here's one thing. Just how much do you love your company? Your job? Even though you really love it that you would be gladly work from dusk until night, I'm not. I love what I am doing. I really do. But I never said that I love the company I work with. That is, you know, the reason why I can still work accordingly, while you keep doing so many mess.

    I work because I know that I have responsibility for the money I get every month, while you work because you have fun. I worked because of the contract I made, while you work because you can laugh by doing so. That's why, I can put all my focus on my work to avoid mistakes, and make so much progress. while you just being dumb because for every mistake you made, you can still laugh, and the boss won't scold you.

    I have almost no friends on the company, while all people on the company are your friends. Even so, I never take you into the world of mine. Why would I? This is my world, my way. And yet, you try make others see what you see.

    Let me tell you something. I can't see it, and I don't want to. Even if I am threatened of being forced to leave the company, or being unloyal, that does not matter. What matter for me is that I find my true self on whathever I do.

    Like a friend of mine said : you should have fun by doing what you love. Therefore, you cannot force others to love what you love. Let them free like a bird. We have our own wings to spread.
     
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    You know?

    It's easy to criticize something. To do something is another thing.

    But most people really loves to criticize or mocking something without doing anything about it.

    Let me tell you something. If you have a better idea or a better solution over this thing, I'm all ears. If you only want to speak what is inside your mind, you better watch your mouth, or you'll hurt others.

    You don't have any idea of what people can do when they got hurt, do you?
     
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    You know?

    when I start dislike someone or something, I never show it up. I tend to keep my smile, until the point that it becomes unbearable. still, until that point, I don't show any signs of disliking.

    It's just, I erased it.

    Well, I can't really erase it. But I can deny its existence, or get denied. Either way, We'll get seprated.

    That's a win-win solution, right?
     
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    I never thought I had to take these anti-depressant pills.

    Doc, I'm sorry. Even though you ask me no to say anything online, I can't help it.

    I just...

    ...nevermind.
     
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    I want to go to the sea..
     
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    The worst part about live, is when you realize that you still wake up in the morning.

    I thought of ending this life coutless times - I can't probably count how many times those thought occured.

    and every times I told myself, "everythings will be alright."

    I think those four words are the only thing that keep me sane. No one would told me that. No one, but myself. In this very world, there is just me and this world.

    So, even though I still live in this day, I gotta believe that everythings will be alright.

    I'm sure of it. I have to.
     
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    There is a saying : a cotton will be a cotton. Nevertheless, it's weight will be different if it is measured by a horse and an ant, and we can't say which is right, either it is light as the horse measured, or it is heavy like the ant said.

    people too, I believe, have their own strength in facing a problem. Someone can't just judge that a problem is easy just by seeing it on their own perspective. Indeed, we can't simply understand other people's problem, but we can stop to judge whether people are strong or weak just by how we see the problem, not by how they see those.

    Even so, all people I've met likes to judge the weight of the cotton by their own measurement, even though I hope that they will see it by how I measure it. I mean, back then, I tend to see the problem by how they see it. I never judge anybody - never ever want to. So why does everything turn out to be against me this time?

    The world is just too tedious to bear. It's simply unfair.

    Still, I want to continue this life.

    I think, the fact that I haven't commit suicide yet is merely that I still want to live.

    God, please help...
     
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