A+23 - Visual Daybreak

Invisible scars can be more frightening. When people experience the death of a loved one, or part with someone important forever... they all get angry at first and search for a reason As time passes, they realize nothing will change what's been done and go into despair. But after enough emotion has been let out, ... scars always heal. People get over sadness in different ways. You're not him, so it will be difficult to understand.

 

I can't believe that I almost spend $100 for a game. rather than that, I'm going to spend in make up or various thing in a good ways. punya uang malah bikin kalap, mending uangnya di simpen di tempat yang aman

 

In some ways, one's family is the most oblivious. But... what's so important about knowing? In the end, what helps you overcome obstacles isn't brains but someone who'll take your hand and won't let you go. In the end, that's family. Even for heroes, the people they go back to in the end is family. The home inflicted upon you outside the home and the scars inflicted on you by life itself... and even the pain inflicted on you by family... the people who will hold you and stand by you until the end... in the end, it's family. And... no. Even so... history repeats itself. Reply 1988, Episode 01

 

Baru sadar kalo sebenernya aku gak punya waktu lagi, bahkan untuk menunda sampe besok. ternyata udah gak bisa di tunda lagi.

 

Entah kenapa kesel banget hari ini, I'm not someone who come as you please, Don't because you buy something from me means you can do everything And please tell you brother-in-law to see something with his eyes not only his ears

 

Kenapa ya pas lagi kondisi kaya sekarang, ide banyak banget bermunculan.. Tetiba pengen nulis-nulis cerpen lagi lah Terus pengen coba belajar A atau B Tapi pas lagi kondisinya kaya gini, ada deadline

 

Kalo bisa ngilangin satu sifat, aku pengen banget ngilangin overthinking, beneran deh, nyiksa Ini kejadiannya kemaren tapi sepagi ini masih kepikiran juga Duh biasanya juga ilang lah kalo udah bangun tidur tuh, sebel I don't know it was a joke or real but it was means to me, a lot. It decide my future and the afterlife. Ahhh, why the first thing in the morning should be that thing Terus kenapa skrg aku pelupa bangetlah parah ini Nama member di forum yang dulu deket aja udah pada lupa.. Maapin aku manteman~

 

Someone once said... that we're all wanderers on this road called life. And that road is split between... a road you can turn back on, and a road... you can never go back on. There are roads you can always trail back... if you put your mind to it, even if you passed. They can become your excitement or even your happiness. They could also become... your hope for a shiny, new beginning. Whereas, some roads, you've either come too far... or maybe the way back has been blocked. It becomes a road where you can't go back even if you want to.

 

See? Don't expect something they'd never promise for. Kalo cuma diperlakukan sama kaya murid2nya yaudah ya gausah lebih :')

 

This is the first time that I like someone without seeing anything in his background or whatsoever "I love you not because of anything you have, but because of something that I feel when I'm near you" - Curiano Well, its a bit far if I describe this feel to love but I was comfortable with you, really I won't tell you now, lets meet again in May :') Hope this feel will last, that you're the one that I've been searching and sacrificed my first love for

 

The 2 years ago you've always mentioned it, I know I know that I was your bad memories I also know that I was someone bad example But are you also know that I've read it? A dozen times of it. Why are you so selfish even after 2 years? See? Age is just a number, maturity is a choice. I'm so glad that I was do the right thing at that time. You always been so sensitive yet so careless over one thing. Poor you.

 

"I was good, if I'm not good then theres something wrong with your point of view." Recently said that to myself while looking at the mirror.

 

Spend most of the time lying on the bed for almost a week. I love sleep so much, that maybe become female 'sleepy' in korea lol. But after all this sleep *lol* I suddenly get sick of it. I want to spend my youth beautifully with great health so lets become productive and also healthy after all this end. Semangat niken

 

Bolehkah kita berjodoh? :') Hari ini aku seneng, tapi malah nangis aku seneng karena ada kesempatan, dan aku nangis karena itu salah satu bagian dari harapan harapan, aku lagi ngehindarin banget temen yang satu itu, temen yang namanya harapan harapan = ekspektasi ekspektasi terkadang pada akhirnya lebih banyak sakit hatinya dan aku gak mau lagi berharap semenjak kejadian terakhir kali itu sepertinya visi kita udah sama, gak mau pacaran, mending langsung nikah gak usah pake lamar-lamaran segala, sama kan kita? dan pasti banyak orang lain juga yang sama, gak cuma kita aja tapi untuk kesekian kalinya rasa ini pernah ada, ... bolehkah kita berjodoh? mungkin baiknya kita saling berharap dalam doa dan melihat jawabannya dan aku berharap, kita berjodoh. aamiin.

 

Well, semua memang berawal dari alasan dan ada solusinya sih Entah itu solusinya menjadi baik atau menjadi buruk, semuanya sama aja solusi Alasan menunda, solusinya adalah 'saya bisa, cuma ini hilang arah aja jadi nanti aja' solusi buruk Alasan gak bisa sholat awal waktu, 'gpp baru adzan ini' solusi buruk Yang pada akhirnya jadi baik. Alasan menunda, solusinya jadi: "screw them, I'm going to finish them all" dan akhirnya jadi selesai Alasan sholat, solusinya jadi: "udah adzan langsung ke masjid" nah kan? Ada stepnya sih semuanya jadi solusi dan akhirnya jadi pembelajaran ke diri sendirinya *lagi ngomong sama yang di kaca

 

Why I'm so full of myself when theres a 99% chance of getting rejected. A one-sided crush mostly never works thats why I should know about it better than anyone else ... because I get it too many times. "ketika hatimu terlalu berharap pada seseorang, maka Allah timpakan ke atas kamu pedihnya sebuah pengharapan. supaya kamu mengetahui bahwa Allah sangat mencemburui hati yang berharap selain Dia. maka Allah menghalangimu dari perkara tersebut agar kamu kembali berharap kepadaNya." Ken ..... :')

 

Ya Allah capek, pengen keluar dari tempat ini segera..

 

Lah masuk list yang dipanggil lagi Tapi kenapa yang aku gak ada spesifikasi hasil sama sekali? Apa aku gak berprogress? Malah di kasih tanda bintang gitu?! Arghhh ini kenapa lagi

 

Akhir-akhir ini tiap malem sebelum tidur kadang muncul banyak ide atau curhatan yang gak tersampaikan pas siang *tsaaaaaaaahh Dan akhirnya karena males buka diary dan nulis, aku rekam aja ke voice memo Dan karena auto sync ke itunes, pas lagi play by recently added tetiba ke play lah itu rekaman Aku karena gak pernah dengerin suara sendiri malah bingung, ini suara siapa aku kira itu narasi lagu buat intro dari albumnya siapa ternyata suara sendiri HAHAHAHAHA but its fun to hear your own voice with your own story jadinya kaya dengerin temen curhat aku gak pernah bangga sama suara aku semenjak dibilang 'cempreng' apalagi dulu pernah iseng rekam suara sendiri pas nyanyi dan hasilnya gak banget di rekaman ini juga suara aku dataaaaaaaaaaaarrr banget tapi seneng entah kenapa pas aku nyeritain diri aku sendiri pas seneng dan ikutan galau pas aku nyertain diri aku sendiri sedih mungkin nanti-nanti kita, eh aku, rekam aja deh curhatannya biar bisa flashback dan ngerasa proud karena udah jalanin itu semua